Prune

Prune Week 10



My Baby’s Development:  My baby (now the size of a prune,but not nearly as shriveled) has small indentations on his/her legs (soon to be knees and ankles!), and has tiny arms (each are reonly abou the size of this number 1)even have elbows that bend. Inside that little mouth, tiny buds of baby teeth are forming under the gums. The stomach and kidneys are kicking into gear, producing digestive juices and urine, and if it's a boy, his testes are making testosterone (how manly!).

Moi:   For many moms-to-be, those pesky pregnancy hormones cause the smooth muscles of the large bowel to fall down on the job — they get sluggish and you get constipated. Whole grains and veggies can help, as can drinking lots of water and exercising regularly. You might also be coping with headaches and newly visible veins as your body's blood supply ramps up (it'll increase by 20 to 40 percent over the course of your pregnancy!).  I have seen a day or two where to me, my skin seemed pale but with red dots (not like connect them but just flushed)  My uterus is now the size of a small grapefruit. How charming.

Frequent urination:  Not as bad as the weeks before but I'm still waking up at all hours of the night.

Fatigue: You probably still feel as if your get-up-and-go has gotten up and gone, but don’t worry — in about a month you’ll be feeling less tired. In the meantime, don’t be super mom-to-be. Ask for help, get some rest, and work in some exercise when you can. Yes, it seems counterintuitive to go out for a walk when you want to crawl into bed, but you’ll feel peppier (promise!) — and you’ll sleep better.

Breast tenderness and change: Sometimes I grope myself to make sure there's a change. I'm so anxious to have boobies.  Still slightly tender but not as bad as before.

Nausea and vomiting: Not as bad as before but still get the occasional sickness!

Heartburn and indigestion:  Thankfully not yet.

Flatulence: I'm normal in this department and it's been alleviated. =)

Increased vaginal discharge:You’ve got more blood flowing to the pelvic area (good for your sex life) thanks to the pregnancy hormone estrogen, as well as more mucus. The result is a thin, milky-white discharge that you may be seeing now. It’s harmless, so don’t bother with special wipes or washes — these could change the delicate balance of your genital tract and lead to irritation.

Bloating: Oh wow, yes I feel so bloated, I feel like I just cant stick in my stomach =(

Constipation: I hope not to get this too much or at all, I brought home a grinder so I could do some flaxseed treatment

Occasional faintness or dizziness: Your body is still getting used to all that blood pumping through it, so it’s no wonder you feel dizzy occasionally. Be sure to sit or lie down as soon as you feel light-headed (so you don’t fall). To decrease dizzy spells, carry healthy snacks around for a quick blood-sugar boost and stay hydrated

Increased sense of smell: Very increased!

Total weight gain/loss: hmmm, im afraid to step on the scale.

Sleep:  I-N-T-E-R-R-U-P-T-E-D  from visiting the powder room so often I think I actually sleepwalk there just because I’m so use to it now

Food Cravings: Fruit and Veggies.  Although I really wanted a Neopolitan shake from Inn-n-Out so I got one but on my second sip, it was way to sweet.  I've noticed if a food or item is sweet it's double sweet for me and I can't

Best moment this week:  After my scare, I seen the ultrasound and heard the heartbeat and was just so happy that everything so far has been okay.

Movement: Just my heart when it flutters!

Gender: Everyone says a boy but I’m hoping for a girl. In any case, as long as he or she are healthy and has all limbs joints and happy, then I’m happy!

Labor Signs: None!

Belly Button in or out: Belly Button is in but my belly is feeling like it's sticking out. lol

What I miss: Working out like I use to and skating.

What I am looking forward to: another week!

Weekly Wisdom: Be present. 

Milestones: No obsurd cravings!

Visible veins on your body: That increased blood supply is also responsible for the road map of veins crisscrossing their way across your belly and breasts. Those veins are doing the important work of taking nutrients and blood to your baby. So there’s nothing you can do but wait. They will disappear though!

Lower abdominal achiness: Like so many pregnancy symptoms, round ligament pain (which is just a fancy name for those growing pains in that burgeoning belly of yours) is probably something you never expected. What’s causing them? The ligaments that support your belly are stretching out (and getting thinner); and as your belly gets heavier, the weight pulls on the ligaments, causing pain (sharp or dull). The best thing to do is get off your feet and get comfy.

Scarey Situation and an ultrasound picture

On Friday I had a bit of a scare.

I noticed some bleeding but I thought it was ok, but then this dark red (almost black) like substance came out and for a while there I thought the outcome was going to be really bad.

I called Kaiser and they sent a message to my doctor and I waited at home for a few hours, then I started having some pelvic pain. So I called again and they booked me to go in and see an OBGYN.  I went and he did an ultrasound to make sure everything was fine.

The heartbeat was strong and I seen how much this little one has grown.  It's truly crazy.  I started to cry but for good reasons.  I realized even more how much this is a miracle.

I guess he or she just wanted me to see him or her and know everything is okay.  The head looks like it's to the side and looking to your left you can see where the eyes are, the nose, a bit of the ear, the lil arm limbs and the heart.

9 Weeks

Olive

Olive You

Week 9

 My Baby’s Development:  Good-bye embryo, hello fetus!  Now the size of a green olive, my baby has grown about an inch since last week. Tiny muscles are beginning to form, so while he/she might not be ready to pump iron, he’s/she’s gearing up to move both arms and legs.  They say I might be able to hear something at my next visit but guess what? I already have last week.  The head has straightened out and is more fully developed, the ears are much more prominent, and some new organs (the liver, spleen, and gallbladder) are forming. My baby fetus is also making spontaneous movements of his or her arms and legs now that minuscule muscles are beginning to develop, though I won't feel my tiny dancer for at least another two months.

Moi:  They say - Chances are you've never felt so tired in your life and for good reason: Your body is working overtime preparing for motherhood as it develops the placenta, your baby's lifeline. However, they must have never endured a roller derby practice!  At the same time, your metabolism and hormone levels are surging, which triggers a decrease in blood sugar and blood pressure. The result of all this: pregnancy fatigue.  Relief is around the corner as your energy level increases (and morning sickness decreases) over the next few weeks once placenta construction is completed.  The most benign and typical type of vaginal bleeding during pregnancy is called "implantation bleeding" and comes from the spot in the uterus your little fetus has chosen to implant. If the bleeding continues, your doctor or mid-wife will probably recommend that you avoid any heavy/high-energy activities and avoid sex. You may also be placed on modified bed-rest to improve implantation.

Frequent urination:  “Extravagant” should be my word because it just seems to fit these days.  I pee and pee and pee.  If there were a pee fairy, I’d be freakin’ rich!

Breast tenderness and change: OHMG my nuggets are so tender.  Not the kind that you think hmmm, can you spare some bbq sauce.  I feel like I got hit with a dodge ball in both. I think I’ve gained like .25 ounces in boobage.  Not much but definatley a subtle change. Can there be a boob fairy? Please?

Excessive saliva: Thankfully not yet.

Heartburn and indigestion:  Chew some sugarless gum. Chewing increases saliva, which then neutralizes the acid in your stomach. Tums or Rolaids also eases the burn (and gives you a calcium boost to boot). So far no heartburn for me. Yay!

Flatulence: Got enough gas to rival a frat boy?  But if you’d like to keep those embarrassing explosions to a minimum, try opting for small meals that won’t overload your digestive system as much as large meals do. I’m kinda glad at this point that I sleep alone because sometimes I feel like I’m in fraternity: ‘Lamda Gassy Beta Phew’.

Bloating: To keep that gassy, bloated feeling to a minimum, eat a healthy diet and drink plenty of water to avoid constipation (see below), which can aggravate bloating. I think I need to hook myself up to an IV on some days…yesterday I felt like a bloated puffy fish it was uncomfortable and it sucked.

Constipation: To avoid even more bloating, try to get those bowels moving at their normal (or prepregnancy normal) pace. Besides drinking lots of water, have a go at fruit and vegetable juices to make you go. You could try hot water and lemon first thing in the morning (or last thing at night) — some pregnant women swear by it!  Not so far, I have flaxseed and it will be my best friend

Increased sense of smell: You would think I have an aardvarks nose with my sense of smell these days.

Total weight gain/loss: Lost 1 more pound since 2 weeks ago (Total is 10.4 pounds that I’ve lost since Sept 1^st).

Sleep:  I-N-T-E-R-R-U-P-T-E-D  from visiting the powder room so often I think I actually sleepwalk there just because I’m so use to it now

Food Cravings: Fruit and Veggies.  Thankfully!

Best moment this week:  When the father said he still loves me. Were going through a bumpy road right now.  Also when my cousin sent me a ultrasound pic of a blueberry. Haha cute.

Movement: just my patas to the toilet.

Gender: Everyone says a boy but I’m hoping for a girl. In any case, as long as he or she are healthy and has all limbs joints and happy, then I’m happy!

Labor Signs: None!

Belly Button in or out: In

What I miss: Sleeping through the night, being able to skate and some of my friends who were in my life who I've sadly lost touch with.

What I am looking forward to: My nuggets growing, hey although its temporary, it's safer than a boob job! And when talking to my BFF Rosa, her son will only be a year older than my kid.

Weekly Wisdom: Tell the ones you love, that you love them.  When someone means so much, don’t let stupid things get in the way, soften your heart, smash your pride and enjoy what time we have with one another.  We never know when that time will be up.  Sometimes I have to remind myself as well.

Milestones: Still losing weight and yes I’m still eating.

On a sadder note, my previous supervisor Dio Sanchez passed away this past Monday and I was lucky enough to send him an email to let him know that I'm growing a little human inside of me.  My current supervisor Theresa let him know in person and he smiled.  In my email I let him know of the wonderful traits he shared with his children that I would love to pass on with my little one, to be vested in his/her future and to not only teach them, but learn along beside them.

Raspberry

I kind of think of Raspberry Tart from my childhood favorite cartoon 'Strawberry Shortcake'

Although its a sweet little charactor my baby is actually graduated from the size of a Blueberry to the size of a large fruit 'Raspberry'

Week 8 - Raspberry

Week 8

My Baby's Development:  My baby is growing at an amazing rate — about a millimeter every day — and now is the size of a large raspberry. My little berry is looking a lot less reptilian (even though he/she has webbed fingers [which are differentiating now] and toes, the tail is just about gone) and a lot more baby-like these days, as the upper lip is forming, the protruding tip of that cute button nose, and tiny (and very thin) eyelids, eyelids, legs, and back continue to take shape. The heart is beating at the incredible rate of 150 times per minute. Even though I can't yet feel it, he/she is now making spontaneous movements by twitching his/her tiny trunk and limb buds.  The

Moi:
My baby's digs are growing, too. Amniotic fluid increases at a rate of about two tablespoons per week to accommodate my womb's growing tenant.

Fatigue: goodness yes! I went to Target and Old Navy the other day and after I was pooped! Well I did some house cleaning and made breakfast too so that may be taken into account.  But last night I was cleaning my room, made dinner, went to the store and was pretty much okay.  Maybe because I was able to eat better and had more nutrition to help me through the day.

Nausea and vomiting: ugh, still here. Every. Single. Day. Well i didn't chuck yesterday so that was good.

Food cravings and aversions: I'm not craving much, just mostly can't stand meat.  The other day my cousin was talking to me and she had corn chips and guac and i had to plug my nose, it was gross.  Weird because i love both of those.  And alcohol, eww makes me kind of gag, especially on the breath of someone.

Flatulence: Along with the bloating and constipation comes that other common scourge of pregnancy: flatulence (aka farting). The (aptly named) hormone relaxin, along with progesterone, is working to relax the muscles in your body, including those in your gastrointestinal tract. This causes food to move along more slowly, which leads to indigestion and gassiness. What can you do about it (except apologize to those around you)? Try to relax when you eat — tension can cause you to swallow air along with your food, which can form gas pockets in your belly. Have to remember this. lol otherwise: No comment!

Bloating: Those swell pregnancy hormones may cause you to swell as they slow down your metabolism. Try to drink lots of fluid and follow a healthy diet to avoid constipation, which only aggravates your bloated feeling.  I do have to drink, more water which I'm doing but I can't tell much because im always chucking.

Constipation: Fiber can be your BFF in the fight against those sluggish intestines, so add some fiber to every meal. But pace yourself if you’re not used to a fiber-rich diet or you’ll find yourself gassier than ever before: For instance, replace that white rice with brown and serve it along with your roasted chicken and veggies but don’t overload your system with a dish of brown rice, tofu, and broccoli.  This is helpful, I haven't been yet but I'd like to avoid this at all costs.  Flaxseed, where are you?!

Increased sense of smell: If your heightened sense of smell is making mealtime preparation unbearable, switch to foods that you don’t have to cook. If there’s a window in the kitchen, leave it open. Or just cook the foods you can stand to eat.  This is a must. I almost gagged when slicing garlic and the mushrooms last night but I wanted pasta so bad, I had to suck it up and cook. It was an easy no tomatoe, no cream sauce based pasta.  Light and tasty.

Increased vaginal discharge: Yet another bodily fluid introduced to you courtesy of estrogen — leukorrhea, a thin, milky vaginal discharge. (When estrogen increases blood flow to the pelvic area, it stimulates the body’s mucous membranes.) Leukorrhea protects the birth canal from infection by maintaining a healthy balance of bacteria, so don’t try to douche or wash it away.

Occasional headaches: Not so much thankfully.

Occasional faintness or dizziness: Again not so much thankfully.

I love dairy

I love dairy, but apparently not as much as this homeboy

I love dairy and am so glad that I can drink/eat it.  I heard that many folks can't and don't have the taste for it.  I love greek yogurt and love milk.  Besides my mom lost a tooth when she was preggo with me so I def need to be on the safe side and increase my milk intake.  Especially since it's a protein and Im not eating much meat these days.

All milk that I buy are from Cows NOT treated with the growth hormone: rBST (wikipedia it)

Why do I choose to drink Organic milk? Well mostly for health reasons that I choose to believe. 

I got this today from Orgnaic Milk Review site  (10/12/10) and check it out:
One requirement of organic milk is that the cows are not treated with antibiotics. Organic milk cows must have access to pasture.  They cannot be treated with BGH – bovine growth hormone, which increases milk production. People feel this is important because there is concern that BGH hormones in milk could lead to higher levels of IGF – insulin growth factor – which is linked with cancer and that it could raise the risk of other hormone-related cancers. They can only be fed grain or grass that is not treated with pesticides.  Check out #6 on the list of the 7 foods experts won't eat.

I usually buy my Organic Milk at Costco but here are other one's that I really really like:

TJ's Organic Cream on Top Milk 
for some odd reason, this taste different....not sure how but just taste better to me.  Maybe the name leads me to believe it tastes better but I do like buying it.

Straus Family Creamery
okay, this one is one of my fav's as well.  Is it because the cool bottle and cap that I can reuse over and over for other liquids or it just tastes better? Not sure but I do like it.

Clover Organic Farms Organic Milk
yup, this one is a good one too.

Blueberries do not like meat!

Every single time I eat meat, I get sick. 

This weekend at my sisters baby shower, I ate some mmm good meatballs.  They were so good that 'blueberry' made me taste them again.  Ugh.

Yesterday (Monday) was a county observed holiday.  So I made some GF banana pancakes with Turkey sausages.  I could only eat the sausages if I had some Agave Nectar on them.  Or I felt like I was going to get sick.

Today I went to Starbucks and got a Chai Tea Latte.  Then I took my friend to McD's for a coffee and she got me a sausage mcmuffin.  It tasted good but 1/2 hour later, it and the chai tea were revisiting the entry point.  So I will keep in mind, no meat for now.

But I have to do my best to be GF while preggo because I do not want to look into the nursery room and see my kid looking like this:

Blueberries heartbeat

Today was my 2nd doctor's visit.  I heard the heartbeat.

But it was there!  I'm trying to upload for you to hear what i'm talking about, but it's not working =( so just imagaine it sounding like a cross mix of Pac-Man and a Washing Machine.

Here is a picture to see the little Blueberry:

It looks more like....i don't know but if your new to looking at these kinds of pictures, it's the lighter side of the black cashew looking part.  Not much to look at this point huh?

Tip - Sick Bag

I have this bag at work that I use for when 'Mary' comes along.

But being that I won't be needing those items for a while I will have to change what's inside of it.

So...here are the tools for my sick bag:

     * Toothbrush (if you don't brush after you chuck, your gross)
     * Toothpaste (you need this with the toothbrush, duh)
     * Mouthwash (I prefer this as an after just to be sure, I never know who I will run into in the lobby)
     * Hard Candies (because this tends to keep me from doing 2 chucks in a row)
     * Rubber Band (or headband whichever comes in handy to hold your hair back when your chucking)
     * Hair Clip (to hold the long parts of your hair out of the way)
     * Black Liquid Eyeliner (well for me, mine comes off from the tears that fall out from gagging)

Yup, those are my tools.  I like to hit the trial sized bin, but I do keep a regular sized toothbrush and toothpaste in my bag.

Happy No Matter What

I know they say to wait.  To wait to tell anyone because anything can happen from now until the 3rd month I believe.

But in my case, I figure this.  At this point, I may need all the prayers I can, so yes I'm telling you and you and him and her and them.  Because I feel that a combination of everyone's prayers is mightier than mine alone.  I won't be alone in this in the future so why start off like that now.

If in the worst case at my appointment next week there is no heartbeat, then that is God's will and I'll go from there.  I will be sad and disappointed but I will look at it as, it's been a lot of years I mean A LOT of years since I was last pregnant so....God is letting me know, it's still a possibility....in the future.

If in the best case at my appointment there is a heartbeat, I'll still need those prayers for a healthy baby.

I thought for a long time I was infertile or what not because it's been so long.  I was using contraceptives but guess what? They are not 100% safe as I am being made aware of.  My prayers were always hoping that one day I'd be pregant.  I never planned on now.  I had other plans to attend too, but we can't control what's laid out for us.  I had to unswitch my medical coverage, I wanted to lose a lot more weight before I could even think about wanting this to happen and more but I'm happy no matter what.

I feel blessed and this is a miracle.  This will be my mantra.  Happy No Matter What.  That is all that I can be. I cannot start this off negatively, I wouldn't want my child to ask me one day, "Hey mom, what did you think when you found out?"  "Oh, kid, you were unplanned and the thought of you stretching out my cooter made me miserable and I wasn't happy at all....or excited." 

I'm the evolution of an unplanned pregnancy.  I know what it's like in some instances that I won't share here.  I was the mud in the tire that got stuck but in the end, I turned out fine.  Why? Because I came into the world with so much love that I never missed out on anything else.  This world is ugly enough and negative enough that I can't do that or let myself believe that. Even if my hormones or life tosses water soaked sponges at my face, I will do my best to smile, breathe and keep moving.  Even if my facial muscles hurt, if I'm out of breath and I feel like I'm walking with cement buckets on my shoes.

Now I'm not going to throw a pity party.  Because right now I see the road as such:

What may right now seem as a long and lonely road, there is light.  How that light beams upon me is in God's hands and I will be okay with whichever path it leads me too next.

I like to view this as: after I've hit that beam of light, this is what it will look like next:

Even more light.

Blueberry

Week 7 - Blueberry

It's officially Week 7 and my baby is the size of a blueberry (and 10,000 times bigger than at conception). That's crazy!



Week 7 Development



My Baby's Development:

Most of the growth is concentrated in the head as new brain cells are generated at the rate of 100 per minute. My baby's mouth and tongue are forming as arm and leg buds sprout, and those little kidneys are getting ready to do their job (pee production and excretion). Kinda weird and gross to think I have extra pee and poop inside me somewhere. lol



My baby is going out on a limb this week as his or her arm and leg buds begin to sprout and grow longer (and stronger), dividing into hand, arm, and shoulder segments — and leg, knee, and foot segments (though the limb buds look more like paddles than hands or feet at this early stage).

Also forming this week are my baby's mouth and tongue. And although my embryo is just one month old, it's already gone through three sets of kidneys. The ones in place now are the permanent set and are poised to begin their important work of waste management. In about a week, my baby will start producing urine. Lucky for me, there's no need for diapers (yet). As my baby matures inside you, much of that urine will be excreted into the amniotic fluid, swallowed again by your baby, and then excreted again in a continuous cycle.  Now, this is gross and I will save this to show him/her that hey, eating vegetables ain't nothing when he or she was recyling some of that amniotic fluid! lol

Moi:
Bigger Breasts:  My baby might be the size of a blueberry, but my breasts are supposed to probably look more like melons. By this point, some expectant moms have grown a full cup size.  However, so far, they are just tender little nuggets. =(   They seem like little baby melons...well...premie sized at least. The areola, the dark area around the nipple, has already gotten darker and larger — and will continue to grow and deepen in color over the months to come. So I'll have what may seem like burnt chocolate chip cookies? WTH?

Pregnancy aversions: ugh. no joke. I hate beef. Meat.  but I had a taco, but now I'm burping it so it's gross again.  Just thinking of Beef/meat makes me SICK!

Frequent Unrination: Check.  I think I need a pillow and a TV in the restroom. Ok ok im exaggerating but I'm sure that will come in handy later....but I did get to visit my stall frequently.  I have been drinking more water to help avoid being stuffed up. lol

Fatigue: Check

Breast Tenderness & Changes: The 1 other thing I was looking forward too...I'll have to keep an eye on these little nuggets to see if they grow into little melons.

Nausea and vomiting: I'm trying to stay away from my pills, but geez, I feel slightly quesy.  *update* I had to take one last night but I was still kinda sick and I tossed up that Taco Hell. ugh. Grossness.  My boss said to look at it as: "Barfing is Beautiful".  =)

Excessive Saliva: gross. Hasn't happened yet and I'm glad because snail trails are not cute!

Food cravings and aversions: I haven't had any yet. I'm just SOOO undecided!

Heartburn and indigestion: I guess I have to either drink BEFORE or AFTER I eat because too much food with fluid, will distend my stomach and aggravate burn. I hope this doesn't happen, I seen my friend and she was eating like 20 tums a DAY!  I should start staying away from spicy, fatty foods and caffeinated drinks (which I don't drink much anyhow).

Consitpation: my answer will be Probiotics in yogurt and maybe pill form after I check with my doctor. Probiotics (which I've always been a believer of) stimulate the intestinal bacteria to break down food better and help your digestive track keep things moving.

Sweet Pea

Week 6 - Sweet Pea



I woke around 3am this morning to pee and had 1 last test just to make sure.  I went back to sleep and when I woke up, two lines.  Again.

I went to my OBGYN doctor today.  He did an ultrasound. It's really official.  Like on my medical record official.

He said I'm 6weeks and 6days as of today.  Holy Moly.  I usually get some type of sign if it were someone else but it just didn't hit me. At. All!

I seen the sac, and a little (it looked like a clam shaped thingy from super mario 3 type) bump and what I read online it's the size of a Sweet Pea!

That little clam shaped thingy is my baby!

We didn't hear a heartbeat but it maybe too early for that as far as my doctor was concerned so next week, we will check to see what's going on.  He also had me do some labwork for a 'quantitive' whatever....to make sure my hcg levels keep rising.  SO SAY some prayers because well...just say them. =)


Week 6 Development



My Baby's Development:
My baby's jaw, cheeks, chin, eyes, ears, and nose are beginning to form.  The kidneys, liver, and lungs are developing, and heart is now beating 80 times a minute (and getting faster every day).

Moi:

Frequent urination: mmmm...maybe i've been in the bathroom more often.  Not too sure, haven't kept track.

Fatigue: I thought it was my thyroid.  I guess it's a combination.



Breast tenderness and changes: OHMG yes they are.  I didn't realize until I read this and yes they are sensitive!

Nausea and vomiting: My doctor prescribed me some pills for this. Yay!

Heartburn and indigestion: ugh, I keep burping my lunch.  No bueno!
Bloating:

Increased sense of smell: Ugh, yes, I can smell Cilantro from 2 units away.

I got this on 10/5/10 from: http://www.whattoexpect.com/pregnancy/week-by-week/week-6.aspx 

Love meets, smaller than . poppy and orange seeds!

These are the weeks that I have missed:

Weeks 1 & 2: Consider this when these 2 paths are going to cross and when our love meets =)

Week 3: Smaller than the period at the end of this sentence.

Week 4: No bigger than a poppy Seed

Week 5: Looks like a teeny tadpole (with tiny tail) and the size of an orange seed. The circulatory (or blood) system, along with the heart, is the first part of that tiny body to be functional; and as baby's heart starts to form along with the neural tube, which will eventually become baby's brain and spinal cord.

3 bows to the porcelin god and two lines later....

Monday, October 4th will be the date that I remember forever, for more than just a loved one's birthday.

I had been feeling sick and quesy for the past few weeks.  I thought I was maybe coming down with something. Was it my thyroid? Geez it could be a number of things.  But all the things I thought of, I didn't think of one.

I had bloodwork done the week before and my thyroid was out of range and my glucose was 10points over the normal range.  So I have to watch that.

I had a feeling I should've asked to be tested for something else, but nah, it couldn't be that.

The past Saturday, I threw up after I blew my nose.  That happens once in a while. Well, not throwing up but I get the quesyness from just thinking of boogers. eww. Then Sunday, I was sick, I thought it was the grease from the Tacos I had for dinner.  I did a home herbal tea remedy to stop the feeling sickness, but I threw up anyways.

Cut to Monday October 4th.  I was fine but at work I started to feel sick again during my AM meeting.  I had 1/2 of a bollio and some tea during my meeting.  I kept looking at the piece of bread like I was going to fight it because just looking at it made me feel sick.  For lunch I was on my way out the door to get some yogurt at Target, something made me stop in my tracks (like when you get hit in the stomach right after you drink the water in mexico), I walked back in and went to the bathroom.  You guessed it.  I threw up.  When I came out, my mom was in the front and asked if I was ok.  I said yes, but I wasn't feeling good. I told her it was my thyroid.  She said I didn't look good and like I had dark circles under my eyes.  It was my eyeliner that got smeared.

I never once thought I was pregnant, but when I tossed up again and it was just bread (which I never tosss up a carb) I went and bought a 3pack Pregnancy test.  I did it at the store (after I purchased it of course) and it came out positive.  I seen 2 lines...instantly I threw it in the trash, put my hands up to my face.  Stunned and then dug it out (gross I know but I wasn't thinking much) with a paper towel of course.  I looked and sure enough. TWO lines.  Positive. 

I called Kaiser right away because of my thyroid, it says as soon as you find out you are pregnant, you have to call so they can adjust the levels.  Risks are miscarriages and complications.

I was back at work and in the late afternoon, took another test.  Two lines. Again.

I went home, everything was fine but then I started bleeding a bit.  Bright red, and from what I read online, it's not such a great sign.  I didn't have cramping but I called and got an appointment the very next morning.

I figured I was either 4-8 weeks.  Since I had a normal period 8/12 but last month was the weird one.  I figured it was the hormones in my body changing from the contraceptives or due to my thyroid levels or my cycle was changing.

Now I know I'm definately going to be expecting to expect a lil' one.

I haven't told the father yet because, I want to make sure everything is okay and it's still such a shock to me.

This is crazy.